In loving memory of our Nike Javier who we love so much. Nike Javier will be greatly missed and be in our hearts forever...
I arrived in our family home 2011, and saw that Nike is just on the corner looking at the other three dogs welcoming anyone who comes home. I noticed he was always afraid of people coming near him. I can feel his sadness and pain whenever he looks at the other three dogs being hugged by my parents. I asked why Nike does not like to come close to people. They said because that is his personality. My mom has 4 dogs. Since there were three other dogs who are more outgoing, I thought Nike thinks he is not appreciated as much as the other three dogs. I felt really bad that he might think that he is not worthy of any attention or hugs from us!
I wanted to help him. I don't think anyone in the world, even dogs, would not want to be hugged and loved. I tried to go near him but he would go away scared. I am not sure what to do. I tried to talk to him, he was calm. But when I try to carry him, he growled and bit me. I was shocked at first looking at my wound bleeding (my right hand). Nike was also in state of shock looking at my hand bleeding and that he had done that. I look at him and he actually went near me head down and he could not look me in the eye... as if he is trying to say "I am sorry". I hugged him that time and he let me... this time he did not growl or tried to bite me! When I carried him, he started smiling. Take a look at his picture here, he smiles whenever I carry him!
So from there on, whenever I see him and whenever I come home, he is now used to welcoming me home. He loved being hugged and carried like a puppy. He felt that hugging and being carried feels really good.
By the way, he is 26 lbs. He is very huge and heavy for a shih tzu. But I love him for the way he is. I always thought he is my real life teddy bear.
Nike was an obese dog. In less than one year after I met him, he developed diabetes. My mom took care of him with his diabetic medicines including twice a day injections. It's very painful and stressful for all of us. I try to help talk to Nike so he would be distracted by the injection that my mom will administer. This kept on for about 6 months. He lost a lot of weight (see the picture where Nike is sick). He lost around 16 lbs, at that time his weight dropped down to 10 lbs. When you touch him, you will feel skin and then bones. No more muscles or tissues surrounding the bones. We all felt so terrible.
Mother's Day came... May 12, 2013... 11am, Nike can't even get up anymore. My mom put droppers in his mouth for him to drink water. We knew he will die soon. I am already living in a different house. I was cooking something for us to eat because its mother's day, I am the one who is supposed to cook our dinner. Supposed to be a mother's day celebration... I have not seen Nike for about 5 days because I went out of the country. Today is supposed to be my visit day to our family house...
I went there around 8pm, brought food and cake for my mom for the supposed to be mother's day celebration. I saw Nike and called his name. He actually got up and got near me! Everyone is so shocked! I hugged him and told him its ok, he can rest because I know its very hard and painful for him to move. I am trying to be brave not to cry but I felt really bad already. I put on a smile for him while I stroke his hair saying he should rest. I talk to my mom for a while and told her I will be back tomorrow to help her take care of Nike.
Around 10pm, I told Nike "bye bye Nike, I will be back tomorrow! I promise!"
I went home, but as soon as I reached my house, my mom rang the phone and while crying said "Nike passed away".
I ran towards my family house, and I saw Nike lying in the same spot, looking like he is just sleeping. I cried so hard while hugging him. He still felt warm, and I thought he is just sleeping. I kept saying, "Nike, wake up! I am here! Nike, I am back!". But he never opened his eyes again. He felt so light in my arms. I am in state of shock...
My whole family said that Nike waited for me to visit him, because I haven't seen him in days. He waited even though its so painful for him already to stay awake. NIke waited for me to hug him ONE LAST TIME...
It has been 2 months and still... I am crying right this very moment I am writing this. It is still very painful for me to remember.
I never realized that Nike remembered me! Nike remembered all the good things I have done for him and he waited for me to say goodbye and hug him one last time... The HUG that he felt very good and very loved! He became happier because he realized that being hugged felt so good. He realized that he should not be afraid of people because all the people surrounded him loved him so much! I am so proud that he learned that! So proud of my Nike...
Nike also gave my mom a mother's day gift... as painful to think, I believe Nike thought that it was a huge burden for my mom to take care of him. By dying on mother's day, my mom is free from all responsibilities of taking care of him. I told my mom what I think... My mom cried so much saying that she loved Nike so much that taking care of him was never a burden for her, and that she felt she was taking care of one of her own children!
I never thought that my dog would remember to wait for me... Nike waited for me to hug him ONE LAST TIME...
Even if my dog cannot talk, that alone I felt that he said Thank You for Loving Me and that He appreciated me and loved me so much too!
I love you so much Nike.
In my dreams I'll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you
For all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be...