One of my last pictures of her enjoying outside June 26, 2007

In loving memory of my Holly who I loved so much! Holly will be greatly missed and be in my heart! forever! God saw you getting tired, a cure not meant to be, so He put His arms around you and whispered "Come to me"

Holly in her working clothes

Holly was my beautiful retired Certified Social Dog. I got her from NEADS Dogs for Deaf and Disabled Americans in MA.  When she died I felt such a dreadful sense of pain and loss. For the first time in my life I found myself alone and lost. I wanted to die too. She had been my life for so long that I couldn’t fathom a future without her. Holly has been my life for 11 years and I chose that. I wouldn't have had it any other way. She made me feel like I had a purpose. She needed me like no other human did. I needed her too. Her unconditional love was more then I could ask for. Every single corner of my home had a reminder of Holly. Her favorite futon where she would curl up and sleep, her stuffed grunting animals, Holly's favorite was her giraffe, and her dog bed that went on the floor alongside my bed. I'd say "time for nite nite" and she'd run to the living room and grab her cookie or pigs ear and place it on her bed. When I’m out on my own, I feel that a part of me is missing, because she was always there, my constant companion. Having Holly put to sleep was the most traumatic experience of my life. After it was done I felt like I betrayed her. But then the other part of me knew it was the best decision for Holly because she was sick and what Holly had was incurable.

Holly and me

Holly had the greatest personality and brightest eyes you ever saw. The black outline around her eyes was so perfect. She had amazing eyes. Holly was so smart I believe she knew what I was going to do before I did. When we went for walks and we were getting close to a light post or stick in the ground. I'd say go around and she would! I have to say I miss our walks the most. Holly lived for the snow! She would push her nose deep inside the snow. Then lift her head up really quick and her whole face would be covered! She'd always give a couple barks because she loved it so. She was a very vocal girl. She loved to talk. She always greeted her special friends with a few barks. 

Holly loved being outside

Holly had her yearly vet check up on June 4th of 2007 I had asked my vet to do an extra blood test because I noticed her drinking more water then usual and thought something was wrong. Well, the blood test showed that my Holly had kidney disease. So, she had to go on special prescription food called hills k/d canned and dry. Lots of meds too. She had a very poor appetite, was dropping weight like crazy. Also vomiting what little she did eat. One day her eyes looked at me as if to say "Mommy I'm tired". So, I made the hardest decision to put her down. I just didn't want my pretty girl to suffer. My Holly was always a lady and I wanted her to passed with dignity and no pain. She gave me the best 11 years of my life.

us again

I don't know how I'll live without you Holly. It is two weeks today since I lost you pretty girl. I cry everyday. I miss hearing your nails walking across the floor. I miss watching you wipe your mouth all over the futon and my jeans after you had something delicious to eat! I miss hearing you lap up your water. I miss listening to you breath at night when I couldn't sleep. I miss watching you take your cookie to the front door letting me know that you wanted to sit under your favorite tree. I miss watching you scratch at your bed then putting your nose under it and fling it into the air, the harder I laughed the more you'd do it again. I miss you leaving a big wet spot of drool after you've enjoyed your piggy ear on my bed! Thank you for always loving me just as I am and being so loyal!

Hope and Holly

My kitty Hope had a very special bond with Holly. I know she is grieving too. I'm just happy we have each other. Hope has been there for me through all my tears!