In loving memory of our Otis who we love so much. Otis will be greatly missed and be in our hearts forever.
On March 31, 2008 around 330 pm my whole life changed. I lost the one thing in my life that no matter what I do this thing would love me unconditionally. That was my sweet dog Otis. He had cancer and I found out about it last summer and had a very difficult time with that diagnosis. They said he may not live to Christmas but he did and lived longer than we thought. He fought hard to stay strong and he made me even stronger by the cancer not getting him down. The last few weeks have been difficult and I took him back to the vet and he had gained 10 pounds and had a huge mass in his stomach. That was when I had to make the choice of what I needed to do. I could not let him go that day so I held onto him for 10 more days before letting him go. I know that letting him go instead of suffering was the right thing to do but yet I feel guilty. He was like my child to me. I talked to him about everything and wished he could talk back when I was confused about things. He was by my side every night and there every morning. It is the little things that I miss-- his tail wagging, him nudging me for attention-- but mostly I miss his compainship. I feel so lost without him. There will never be another dog like him nor will any dog every take his place. He has my heart and one day I hope to see him again. I know he is up in Heaven at the Rainbow Bridge watching over me and Cameron and would want us to be happy and go on. I know he has his right eye back and is cancer free and is having fun and running around up there. Knowing that he is happy and healthy again and that one day I will be with him again gives me peace that what I did was what he would have wanted me to do.
Otis-- I love you and miss you more than you know and I always will!!
Looks as if he is smiling
If it should be that I grow frail and weak, And pain should keep me from my sleep, Then will you do what must be done, For this -- the last battle -- can't be won. You will be sad, I understand, But don't let grief then stay your hand. For on this day more than the rest, Your love and friendship must stand the test. We have had so many happy years, You wouldn't want me to suffer so. When the time comes...please...let me go. Take me to where to my needs they will tend, Only, stay with me to the end... And hold me firm and speak to me Until my eyes no longer see. I know in time you will agree It is a kindness you do to me. Although my tail its last has waved, From pain and suffering I have been saved. Don't grieve that it must be you Who has to decide this thing to do; We've been so close -- we two -- these years, Don't let your heart hold any tears.