Our Sweet Baby Girl Jesse
In loving memory of our Jesse who we love so much. Jesse will be greatly missed and be in our hearts forever.
Jesse ... Baby Girl ... Cujo ... ... Doodle ... Lump ... just a few of the names she answered to. Jesse was the joy of our lives .. and she'll miss her first Halloween in 10 years. The neighborhood kids were always afraid of her at first .. the dark fur, eyes that glowed red in the light .. but all it took was one big body wag and a swipe of the tongue and they were hooked on her -- just as we were.
We lost Jesse far too quickly. We just returned from vacation and picked Jesse and her brother Travis up from the kennel. It was great to see them and they were very excited to be going home. Once home, they both played in the back yard with renewed energy but Jesse took a tumble on the steps up the deck. A little later we noticed her acting restless and coughing as if something was caught in her throat. We took her back outside for a bit, but then noticed how firm her belly had become. By the time we got her to the emergency clinic it was near the end as a result of the tissue damage caused by the restricted circulation.
Jesse died from Gastric Dilatation-Volvulus -- her stomach flipped over restricting the ability for stomach fluid and gasses to escape. Very quickly, the stomach fills with gas further restricting the blood flow to the stomach itself. Riding with her to the clinic was a nightmare -- she was in such pain and continued to lick my hand pleading with me to help her. The vet explained the situation, planted a small seed of hope and we approved the surgery to correct the flip. We were told the surgery would take 3 - 4 hours and we should go home -- the worst decision we've ever made. The vet called about 2 hours later and told us the flip had been corrected but the stomach tissue was severely compromised -- we had to consider letting Jesse go, and we agreed.
I wish the vet had been more direct about how dire the situation was and I wish we'd never left the clinic -- we weren't able to hold her and say goodbye. The guilt is terrible....
We made the right decision -- Jesse is in a better place, but I just want to hold her again.